For you

You're sure you've done all?
I have and the wind says, 'Give up'.
But you've always wanted to be a physicist...
I think I've gotten old for childish ambitions.
You couldn't have been mistaken.
I have and I am determined to make it right.
And so you're leaving.

I have done all.
You don't seem convinced.
Sometimes, I feel that life is all about decisions.
Like how you're deciding to quit?
I am doing this for me.
And so you're leaving.

I could be a hermit.
You've always wanted to be in a crowd.
Then let me be a priest.
You are not one to be caged.
I must do this before it's too late.
And so you're leaving.

You have not done all.
It appears to be so, I'm not sure anymore.
You can stay.
I am tired.
You wrote me that note 

on a page of my favorite book.
It says you promise...
I'm sorry, you've always been there for me.
And you're leaving.

...but I will always be here for you.

Braving Ignorance

We oftentimes squirm out of a situation that exposes our weakness, like knowing something that everybody seems to get but we don't. I remember how a group of friends in school before talking about Ang Huling El Bimbo and how the song was sad, and all I could do was nod and be as quiet as I could, and pray for the bell to ring. Fast.

Weekends

On a Friday, starting at 3pm, the world feels like it's starting to pack for a weekend breather. This, somehow, brings a different kind of excitement, like everything is permissible. Go ahead, you dont have to finish whatever for Monday always comes.

All of a sudden, you only have to turn in work that can be done within the remaining hours of the work week. No need to hurry to complete anything.

Coffee and Decluttering

The dry season started about three weeks ago. And with it, the kind of humidity that makes showering a decadent dessert.

Why the wash basin at night

To what end?

That has been in my head these days like a stubborn boyband song. It started the one time I pushed for a few more thousand steps to get past my goal of 8k and see that "congratulations" on my watch. When I did, I thought, Ok now what? Nothing else makes sense. Now, I struggle to even bother to wear socks to work without having to think about WHY?

Transistor Radio and Summer

Back at my grandparents' place, decades ago, this was the source of news, music, entertainment and even messages (much like voicemail except everyone can hear it). 

Matnog to Allen

It takes just an hour and a half for the barge to get to Allen from Matnog. It's getting the documents approved and waiting to embark that could take forever!